In Full Bloom

I have come to learn that it isn’t my brother’s fault he was born autistic.  But his condition took a toll on our sibling relationship. I yearned for normalcy. An older brother who loves, protects and defends his younger brother, yet all I received was the burden of a younger brother with an autistic brother. The distance between us grew stronger and after some time, I realized my brother started acting differently around me. He became reticent as he never played with me anymore and rarely saw each other despite living in the same house. 

I was not a good brother. The lingering grudge of having an autistic brother has dwindled. I had no anger inside me. Only guilt steeped in me. I might not be able to let myself go, but I wanted his forgiveness. The forgiveness that may not be granted as both of us can’t understand each other through any communication.

Daffoart, a platform for my brother, is named after from a flower, Daffodil. The bright yellow flower symbolizes rebirth and new beginnings. I founded Daffoart to display his talent, and most importantly, raise awareness for autism and other disabilities. Although it started with a personal issue, I believe that other autistic and disabled children have the talent that needs to be guided and supported for their future.  They should have the chance to make a difference in their life and a chance for those who are willing to change their lives through conviction, determination, and motivation.

I wish for this website to be an awareness for people about family relationship. A broken relationship is hard to earn back and this is one of my atonement for my sin. It represents me and my brother’s relationship, withered and reborn, searching for a better connection between us, and now hoping to become a flower in full bloom.